Ever since I was little and diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes, I've been told by some people that they wish they could take my Diabetes away.
I know they meant well, they were trying to comfort me, but you know what? I don't ever want to be "comforted" by this phrase again.
Don't tell me you wish you could take away the very thing that saved my life.
Yup, Diabetes saved my life. I didn't realize it until I turned 18, after I'd thrown myself into a fit of anger and depression. I turned my back on God because I couldn't understand why He would allow me to have such an awful disease.
Of course I didn't understand. I was a naive little girl. I've grown up now and I've done a lot of learning and growing. I can see now that Diabetes is the very tool that God used to show me my need for a Savior. And I don't want it taken away for anything. I'm glad I have Diabetes. I'm glad I have Celiac. I'm glad I have hypothyroidism.
Having a broken body keeps me humble and meek. It helps me focus on God as my source of strength. It reminds me that I am nothing without Him. I am NOT self-sufficient. I am NOT self-reliant. I am NOT the center of the Universe.
My trials, pains, and frustrations are for my good and His glory. It's taken me years...YEARS, to learn this. But I am grateful that these lessons were part of His plan for me. He made me this way and He did it for my good, for my salvation.
Every trial has a purpose. Every setback has a reason. Every health
issue keeps us humbly reliant on the One who created us. Our lives are
about more than overcoming these obstacles; our lives are about
glorifying God through them.
It has taken me 18 years to come to this
point...to be able to say that I want to glorify God with every step I
take as I work to manage my invisible illnesses. Diabetes, Celiac, and
hypothyroidism do not define or identify me; they are merely a part of
me. And yet, only for a fleeting moment, for they too shall pass and I
will have the eternal cure for all 3 of them.
What will remain will be
my True Identity, which is found in nothing less than Jesus' blood and