Monday, June 19, 2017


I ended up having to give my holistic doctor permission to send copies of my labs to my endo's office, which is a lot like trying to get everyone to play nice together.  Next week I'm having my labs redone and I'm not taking biotin so that it won't be reflected in the lab values.  Hopefully this helps to clear up the confusion and high cholesterol/TSH numbers.

I've been experimenting more with using R for protein meals.  I'm seeing some lower numbers but it's still a balancing act.  As always.  Preparing for our trip on Thursday means I have a lot to get done in a short amount of time.   

Thursday, June 15, 2017

Dread Confirmed

I had my appointment with my NP today. I feel like I'm floundering and backsliding. A1C went up to 6.3 (134mg/dl). She tried to make me feel better by saying I'm a Type 1 Diabetic and shouldn't be too hard on myself when my numbers don't behave, but I have to be my pancreas and right now I'm failing. She said anything under 7 is great, but I know better. I feel awful. I know I've come a long way but I feel like all that work is lost.

She pointed out my low sodium (I haven't been drinking as much water this past week...oops!) and my high cholesterol and TSH (the only thing she cares to check, of course). I know she wants to put me back on statins but I'm still playing the baby card so she held off. Bwahaha. She also suggested adding some carbs/grains to help lower cholesterol. Nope!

My holistic doctor is testing and treating my thyroid so I'm not worried about TSH, especially since I'm taking so many supplements right now. Just feeling really discouraged.

Tuesday, June 13, 2017

Dreading Thursday

I have to go in for labs today (for my appointment with Carrie on Thursday -- which I'm dreading).  My numbers have been running higher and I'm struggling to figure out why and how to lower them.  My 14-day average is 128 and my 30-day average is 130.  I feel like a complete failure.  I was doing so well before!  Now I'm backsliding and it's driving me crazy!  I don't know what to do.

I have also been stressing about my cat, Yuki, this past weekend.  On Friday, he only ate half the food we fed him throughout the day.  The majority of his time was spent curled up in one napping spot or another.  On Saturday, he didn't eat anything.  On Sunday, he ate a little bit of one meal and drank some water.  On Monday, he still wasn't eating much so I took him to the vet to find out what was wrong.  During the physical exam, he let the vet know that his temperature was slightly elevated and his abdomen was in pain.  We opted to have an X-ray and blood work done to rule out any organ issues (she mentioned pancreatitis) or foreign objects.  Blood work came back fine, only showing a little dehydration.  The X-ray showed some gas buildup in his colon and some constipation.  They did an enema, gave him fluids, antibiotics, and anti-nausea meds, as well as a take-home supply of laxatives.  They confirmed that he was looking better after the enema with a second X-ray and I took him home to rest.  He was a bit out of it last night and only ate one meal, but this morning he seems to be getting his energy back.  He's been eating and drinking more, which is amazing!  And he's been snuggling with me too.  He even went with Haru out into the hall with me while I was doing laundry.  I'm so relieved my furbaby is doing better.  We were both so worried about him.   

Friday, May 26, 2017

The end of my dairy elimination diet

It's been 3 months since I started my dairy elimination diet and, this week, I've been slowly reintroducing dairy back.  I've had buttered broccoli for dinner twice already and I treated myself to 1/3 of a Lily's milk chocolate bar.  They are low carb and GRIT approved and, since I haven't been able to find Chocorite bars in stores anymore, Lily's are a good alternative. 

I also managed to finally find the unsweetened almond milk yogurt at Whole Foods!  SO HAPPY!

So far, I think I've been tolerating dairy!  No big stomach upsets!  I'll be able to make my favorite meals again, including cheesy broccoli and cheddar garlic biscuits!   

Saturday, May 13, 2017

Peanut Butter Mug Muffin

This recipe was an experiment that went horribly right.  Haha.  I ran out of cinnamon for my Cinnamon Swirl Mug Muffins and decided to substitute peanut butter powder in place of it.  Hubby says he likes these better than the cinnamon ones!

2 tbsp coconut flour
1 tbsp ground flax seed
2 tbsp Pyure
1/2 tbsp peanut butter powder
1/4 tsp baking powder
1/8 tsp Himalayan Pink Salt
4 tbsp coconut oil
1 large egg
About 1/2 cup water

Mix all dry ingredients in a mug (I just use a fork) first.
Add the egg and coconut oil, mix well.
Add enough water to get a thick oatmeal-like texture.
Microwave for 3:45 (varies depending on your wattage, but this time works for mine).

Thursday, May 4, 2017

Low Carb Chocolate Candy Bites

Low Carb Chocolate Candy Bites

6 tbsp unsweetened cocoa powder or baking cocoa
6 tbsp coconut oil
2 tbsp granulated Pyure (or other sugar-free sweetener)

Mix all ingredients on low heat in a pan on the stove.  When mixture is liquid and ready, pour into an ice cube tray.  Freeze for about an hour, or until firm.  Keep in freezer to prevent melting.

I experimented with the first batch and added peanut butter (peanut butter powder mixed with water) to the middle, as the picture above shows.  The peanut butter became gooey rather quickly after taking it out of the freezer, but it was good!  You can also add other low carb options to the middle of the candy bar if you like.  The recipe is for the chocolate base only.

Monday, May 1, 2017

Thinking Outside The Box

 For many people, health is a field best left to the professionals.  Why worry about something when someone else has spent hundreds of thousands of dollars on special training and education?

I mean, it makes sense, right?

Maybe but, then again, there's something fundamentally wrong with this thinking.

It's not the doctors who are the problem, so please don't get me wrong.  This isn't a post bashing them.  I'm not anti-doctor, by any means.

But we ARE facing a problem, and the problem isn't one that can be fixed overnight.

It's a multi-level, complicated web of intricately woven threads that has entangled our whole country.

And it's making us sick.

Autism, cancer, obesity, and diabetes are on the rise.

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Does anyone else see a pattern here?

The sad thing is, most doctors are helpless to do anything because they are trapped in the system.  The U.S. health care system governs their education, what they tell their patients, and which medications they prescribe or don't prescribe.  Most doctors want to help people.  They truly care about their patients but, because of all the strings to which they are attached, the treatment options they can recommend or administer are limited.  In essence, they can't think outside the box.  The system won't let them. 

The system has become focused on making money, and having more sick people means the system can make more money.

So what caused this sticky web of sickness-driven money making?

For starters, and primarily, the publication of the low fat dietary guidelines.  

Low Fat Guidelines and Obesity Epidemic
The Standard American Diet (SAD) was introduced in 1977.  It completely demonized many heart healthy foods, such as eggs, butter, and olive oil, and advocated for an increased consumption of sugar, processed foods, and overall calories.   

The typical American diet is about 50% carbohydrate, 15% protein, and 35% fat.
Compare that to the Ketogenic diet, which I follow, containing 5% carbohydrate, 20% protein, and 75% fat.

We have a lot of evidence to look at that supports the detrimental effect the SAD is having on our health.  Health begins at the nutrition level.  What we put into our bodies affects EVERYTHING in our bodies.  If we don't start scrutinizing and re-evaluating our diet, our bodies are slowly (or quickly) going to suffer for it.

In the case of autism, vaccines have been found to play a huge part in the developmental regression in children.  They are pushed by doctors, who receive large monetary incentives, which are in fact the main source of their income (and the very thing which allows them to stay in practice).  Vaccines are not safety tested, and their manufacturers have full immunity from any sort of lawsuit.  This means that they are not liable for any injuries or deaths which occur from them.  Vaccines are full of toxins, chemicals, heavy metals, and endocrine and reproductive disruptors which keep our bodies from functioning correctly.  Their introduction and heavy prevalence in our society have been contributing to numerous health concerns over the past several decades, yet we've been told that they are safe.

Doctors are NOT trained in the field of nutrition.  That's why you get referred to a nutritionist or a dietician.  They're the ones who are the nutrition experts.  However, their education is just as tied into the system as doctors'.  If your health issue is nutrition-based, a doctor is only going to look at your symptoms and prescribe a medication that treats those symptoms, NOT the underlying cause.  In order to really address the issue, you have to treat the root cause, NOT the symptom. 
It's time we took back our health care system and focused on the importance of living long, healthy lives.  No one wants to be told they have a lifelong disease that has no cure, or that will kill them in a few years.  No one wants to live in constant misery, even though it doesn't always feel that way.  Our body is, if we are saved and in Christ, the temple of His Holy Spirit.  We are charged with being good stewards of our body, and caring for it in a way that is honoring to God.  Do you really think God wants you to eat unhealthy foods?  Do you really think He wants you to treat it as a vessel that only serves to bring you pleasure?  You were made for HIS glory and HIS pleasure.  A life change starts with a belief change. 

Isn't your health worth it?  Don't you want to live a long, healthy life?  Are you ready to start thinking outside the box?  Are you ready to take your health back?

Before I started thinking outside the box, I suffered tremendously without really caring.  I just wanted to live "normally," like everyone else.  But inside my body, everything was a train wreck.  The most noticeable issue?   My blood sugars. 

And that graph shows my blood sugars over the course of 3 days.  3 days!  Up and down and up and rhyme or reason, just spike after plummet after depressing!  How hopeless!  I was absolutely miserable.  I felt out of control.  I didn't know I could think outside of the box, until I put my health and quality of life FIRST.  What the doctors were telling me, with their limited knowledge of diabetes and nutritional care, wasn't working.  I KNEW I had to do something different.

I had to take my health care into MY OWN hands, which is right where it belongs.  NO ONE else knows your body like you do.  You have to step up and take charge yourself.  You have to advocate for yourself.  You have to do your own research.  I say this to encourage you.  To empower you.  To show you that there is another way, a better way.  There's always another option.  There is hope.

Here's the ending to my story.  I spent HOURS researching, combing health and nutrition websites for ways to lower my blood sugars.  I found out about a product called a Continuous Glucose Monitor (CGM), a device that monitors blood sugars 24/7.  With some very generous help, I was able to get one for myself and used it to help me see how bad things really were.  I started realizing that food affects my numbers way more than my insulin could handle.  I started cutting out those unhelpful foods, and slowly started to improve my blood sugars.  It wasn't an overnight fix.  In fact, it took me 2 years to get the results I wanted.


Here's me, thinking outside the box:    

This was yesterday.
And this could be you.
Think outside the box, my friend.
Your health depends on it.

Monday, April 24, 2017

Chocolate Peanut Butter Snowcream

Chocolate Peanut Butter Snowcream

2 cups ice
2 cups Blue Diamond unsweetened vanilla almond milk
2 tbsp Kroger baking cocoa
2 tbsp Better Body Foods peanut butter powder
2 tbsp granulated Pyure

Blend all ingredients in a blender.  Makes 2 2-cup servings.  Serve in a bowl or a cup.

Saturday, April 8, 2017

Chocolate Snowcream recipe

The other day, I was craving something chocolatey.  I decided, using the few ingredients that I had on hand, to put a new twist on an old favorite.  I give you...

Chocolate Snowcream!

1.5 cups Blue Diamond Unsweetened Vanilla Almond Milk
2 cups ice cubes
2 tbsp Pyure (granulated)
2 tbsp Kroger Baking Cocoa

Blend all ingredients in blender until well combined.  
Serve in cups or bowls.  Makes two 2-cup servings.
Low carb, dairy free, gluten free.

Monday, February 13, 2017

Sherlock Holmes Is On The Case

Invisible illnesses are not easily detected.  Although they often leave strange clues, sometimes those clues seem to point toward something else.  The illness continues, masked behind the guise of another ailment.

It takes a highly skilled detective, like Sherlock Holmes, to gather the clues and piece them together to solve the puzzle.

This past weekend has been a bit rough.  I haven't been sleeping well the past few nights, mostly due to battling high blood sugars (from needing an increase in basal insulin and chasing protein) and not being able to fall asleep until late into the night.  Almost like insomnia.  I'm trying to shake it.  There's also been a lot of anticipation.

My lab work results were delivered.  I had no idea what to expect...good news?  Or bad news?  Was I infected with parasites?  Was my gut leaking horribly?  Was I allergic to something else?  Was I missing something?  Were my efforts doing anything worthwhile?

Dr. Goodyear led me back to his office and we exchanged pleasantries.  He then started by going over my blood lab work.  He had written notes and circled figures on the page that were of particular interest to him and, ultimately, me.  First was my CRP - high sensitivity marker.  This is the test that indicates the risk of potential cardiovascular diseases by measuring CRP, or C-Reactive Proteins, which are proteins in the blood which increase when general levels of inflammation are present in the body.  At my last appointment, my result was 3.5 (high risk).  Today, he was pleased to tell me my levels had dropped to 1.4 (low side of average risk).  Once I get it below 1.0, I will be at low risk and that is our goal!

He then went over my thyroid labs, since he wanted to make sure I was getting the right dose of Armour.  Free T4 came back at 0.7, slightly low.
Free T3 came back at 2.9, on the low side of normal. 
TSH came back at 0.45, which was right where he wanted it. 
He said that since my results came back low that I was getting a tiny bit too much, so I'm going to cut back my dose from 45mg twice a day to 45mg in the morning and 30mg at night.  This will also help my pills last a little longer.  Then came some big news. 

My thyroid peroxidase antibody levels - the antibodies that were attacking my thyroid - were nowhere near where they had been before! 
My initial result was 610 (super high!). 
My next result was 394, if you remember. 
Today...they were 52!!!! 
I was in shock!  I could not believe they had come down so much in just a year! 

"It's testament that what you've been doing is working!" he said. 

I grinned ear-to-ear as he asked if I had any other questions before he moved on.

To my gut health test. 

Questions?  What questions?  Keep going!  I want to hear more of the story!  What happens next?

Infections are a negative.
There is slight inflammation (no surprise there, for either of us.  My whole body is dealing with inflammation and, since the immune system is primarily in the gut, it's only natural to expect inflammation there).
No digestive insufficiencies.
A few slight imbalances.
A low diversity association of gut bacteria but relative abundance.

What does that all mean?

Basically, I am lacking a little bit in the Good Bacteria Department, but I have no issues in the Bad Bacteria Department.

My lactobacillus came back lower than he would've liked, so his recommendation was to add a probiotic to my supplementation regimen.  It should help balance things out so that my good bacteria has a chance to thrive.   

He then said I was negative for any parasitic activity, which was a huge relief!  It felt amazing to know there weren't any extra pieces to the puzzle we had to address, or mysteries to solve.  Some simple probiotics, which I had been wondering about anyway, seemed to be one of the answers I needed.

He also suggested that it might be possible that the gut inflammation could be caused by something I'm eating.  The 4 main food culprits are soy, wheat, dairy, and eggs, so he said to try a 3-month elimination diet with one of those foods and slowly reintroduce it back to see if I notice any reactions to it (he said I would know if I was having a reaction to it). 

Since I'm already avoiding wheat and I rarely eat soy (although I will pay close attention to labels to be sure), we decided I should start with dairy, since that's a big part of my diet (butter, cheese, sour cream, cream cheese).  I agreed to give it a try so that, as soon as all of the dairy products that are currently in my fridge have been devoured, this next puzzle piece can be checked.  I will instead search out dairy alternatives - almond milk yogurt, ghee, goat's milk cheese, etc.  Who knows?  I may even find some new food items I like!

This health journey has been one mystery after another.  It took me 20 years and several doctors before I found my Master Detective.  If you ever find yourself needing a good detective to help you get to the bottom of a case of invisible illnesses, I cannot recommend Dr. Goodyear enough.  He has been amazing in helping me get to the bottom of my health issues...even ones I didn't even know I had!  I'd say he's a real Sherlock Holmes!    

Monday, January 16, 2017

Finally Moving Forward Again

Today I went to my holistic doctor to get lab work done, including for my thyroid.  I also ordered the gut health test that I started today at home that will tell my doctor a lot more about the state of my intestinal health, etc.  Once I complete the test and send in the kit, I'll get the results back in 4 weeks.  Praying that this will shed more light and give me more answers so I can continue to heal my body and stay on track health-wise. 

I'm continuing to see good blood sugars and I'm hoping to get my R insulin doses figured out so that I can eventually wean myself off Apidra.  Turns out my new insurance does not cover Apidra but I can get a vial of R for $25 at Walmart without an RX, so I'm not worried.

I'm still working on my nutrition schoolwork and it's going pretty well.  I'm almost through The Maker's Diet by Jordan Rubin and it's quite eye-opening.  I'm really enjoying everything I'm learning.  (Anything health-related that you see me posting on Facebook is from my nutrition schoolwork.  Just trying to share some of what I'm learning with everyone!)

I'm also enrolled in a training course for students who are learning how to proofread for court reporters.  I am planning on starting up my own work-from-home business doing this and I just finished the first level of training.  I'm preparing to enroll in the second level and continue with my work.  Step by step, I'll get there!  Pray for me as I work toward this goal.  I am really excited but also a bit nervous as I've never really been in business for myself.  I want to work as unto the Lord and do my best in everything I do.       

Tuesday, January 10, 2017

Why Cheating Is Not An Option

“You’ve earned the right to splurge a little.” 
“You deserve a little reward.”
“It’s okay, a little splurge won’t hurt.”

Have you ever heard these before?  Maybe they were said to you.  Maybe you yourself have said them.  They’re fairly common among dieters, especially anyone who’s trying to lose weight.  Unfortunately, they’re not the helpful pick-me-ups we think they are.  

Most people say things like this to praise dieters for their good work in sticking with their weight loss plan.  They do well and stay faithful to their eating plan for 6 days of the week, and “treat” themselves on the 7th day.  However, this sort of behavior not only hinders those dieters from accomplishing their goal, it also sets them up for more and more trouble in the future. 

More temptations.  “Just a little bite of this sweet thing won’t hurt…even though I’ve had one already…”
More excuses.  “I work so hard to stick to my diet.  Another little treat won’t hurt.” 
More slacking.  “I should have 2 cheat days instead of just 1.” 
Less faithfulness.  “I know I said I’d cut back on my cheating, but this will be the last time…promise.”

Personally, I get the feeling that some people think my low carb diet is a fad, or a short term modification from which I can deviate every now and then.  I suppose I should stop using the term “diet,” since it automatically carries such connotations.  To be clear, I follow a low carb lifestyle the same way I am committed to an exclusive, heterosexual marriage.  I vowed to remain faithfully married to my husband for life, no exceptions.     

Think about it.

Does staying faithfully married for X number of years give me the right to cheat on my spouse, even just once?  No!  In the same way, cheating on my low carb, gluten free lifestyle, even just for one day, or one meal, would wreak havoc on my system and make me feel awful.  It’s just not worth it.

I’m committed to my way of eating.  I’m committed to my spouse.  I don’t deviate.  I don’t cheat.  I don’t splurge.  I stay true and faithful.  That’s what commitment is.  No ifs, ands, or buts.  

I’ve come too far to fall off the path now.  I’d be throwing away everything for which I’ve worked so hard.  I successfully made it through Thanksgiving and Christmas.  I will continue on this low carb lifestyle for the rest of my life, through every season, through pregnancy, through sickness and health.  It is key for me in regaining my health.  I’m pretty sure everyone wants me to continue to feel my best so I can spend and enjoy lots of time with them.  So that’s what I’m going to do.  

And if I ever feel the urge to splurge? 
It will be low carb all the way. 

Thursday, December 15, 2016

Today's appointment

Today's appointment went pretty well.  I wasn't sure what to expect as far as my A1C was concerned.  Turns out it went up a little.

A1C:  5.8 (120 mg/dl)

Carrie asked how things are going, if there were any changes, etc.  All clear and good.  Lab results came back normal for everything.  She asked about my Armour dose, pointing out that my TSH is low, and explained that holistic doctors usually run it low on purpose while treating T4 and T3.  I'll ask to have my thyroid labs tested by Dr. Goodyear in January, but I trust he knows what he's doing since TSH is meaningless on its own.

She also mentioned Tresiba and said if I was interested I could try it.  It's supposed to last longer than Levemir, and I've heard good things about it from other diabetics.  But I'm not sure yet if it would be something worth trying for myself.  I'll do a little more research first; for now I'm happy with the way Levemir is working for me.

I've pretty much figured out that the protein spikes are giving me the most trouble.  I'm constantly chasing them with Apidra and going as high as 180 sometimes.  I have decided to try regular insulin as Dr. B suggests and see how that works.  It's supposed to more closely match the protein rises I see when I eat.  Protein is something for which I have to give insulin, contrary to popular belief.  This is due to gluconeogenesis, the process by which protein and some fats are broken down into glucose.  I think with some trial and error and a few tips from Dr. B's book I'll be able to nail it down.  Then hopefully I'll be able to get my A1C down to 5, or into the 4s!            

Monday, December 12, 2016

How To Treat A Low Without Rebounding

Last night I got to try out my new treatment for lows.  I purchased a bag of pure dextrose from Amazon and it arrived the other day.  I've heard that dextrose works faster than the glucose in sugar cubes, which I've been using up to this point.  Here's what happened:

At midnight, I went to bed at 130 and took a 1 unit correction of Apidra along with 6 units of Levemir.  At 1:17am I was 107, and at 2am I was 94.  I typically check 2 hours after a correction to make sure it brought me down enough, and last night it did.  I went to sleep until about 4:45am, and checked my Dex to see that he was telling me I was low.  I checked and it said 58.  I hopped out of bed, grabbed the bag of Dextrose and a measuring spoon, and figured out how much I needed to eat.

Graph from Dr. Bernstein's Diabetes Solution book

On the bag of dextrose, it told me that 1 tsp = 3g carbs
Since 1g raises my blood sugar by 5mg/dl, that means 3g raises my blood sugar by 15 mg/dl.  I figured that in order to go up to the 80s (30 points) I needed to eat 6g, or 2 tsp.  I waited and tested again at 5:09am and 5:24am.  I was 74, then 80.  So that tells me that my blood sugar rose by 22 points in 36 minutes.  I went back to sleep and woke up at 8am for my Levemir shot.  I was 92.  (I took 5 units this time, as I figure the extra unit at midnight might've been responsible for the low.)  As the graph shows, my number went up and stayed steady after I treated my low.  

If you know how much a single gram of carbohydrate affects you and you don't have a ton of insulin in your system, you can accurately treat lows without rebounding into the 200-300s or higher.  Low carb makes this possible.  The Law of Small Numbers rules.  Fewer carbs = less insulin = smaller mistakes.  It's just common sense.

Friday, December 9, 2016

Diabetes Personified

"If you could personify your diabetes or that of your loved one, what would it be like?  What would it look like, what would it say, what kind of personality would it have?  Use your imagination and feel free to use images, drawings, words, music, etc. to describe it." 
I've been sitting on this topic for a while.  I was originally going to write about diabetes personified as a horse, but I've changed my mind.    I have NO CLUE what could adequately personify diabetes.  Maybe I need to take a different approach.  Instead of thinking about something that already exists, maybe I need to create a personality for diabetes that's all its own.  Kind of like I do with my cats.  That's fun!

I frequently refer to my Dexcom as "Dex" and he has his own personality, which is totally separate from Diabetes.  Why don't we see what kind of a history Diabetes has...then maybe that will help us name and shape him.

The word diabetes comes from the Greek word διαβαίνειν (diabainein), meaning "to pass through," or siphon.  This term was used in the early 1st century by the Ancient Greek physician Aretaeus of Cappadocia.  The condition was recognized by the "excessive discharge of urine."  (Appropriately enough, this was one of the symptoms that I experienced when I was diagnosed.)

Additionally, the Latin word mellitus was added to Type 1 diabetes to differentiate it from Type 2 diabetes.  Mellitus means "honey-sweet," due to the sweetness caused by excess sugar in a newly diagnosed Type 1 diabetic's urine.  Type 2 diabetes is called diabetes insipidus (insipidus means "tasteless") because excess sugar is not present in the urine. 

I think if I had to name my Diabetes, I'd probably go with Si (short for Siphon).

Si is a character.  I've know him for pretty much all of my life.  I was not happy when he decided to become my life-long friend.  In fact, I viewed him as an enemy for about 18 years.  He was always making things difficult for me.  Or rather, I didn't know how to be a good friend to him.  He kept trying to tell me he didn't like all the sugar I was eating.  He'd send my blood sugars up sky high and I'd get frustrated with him (not realizing it was actually my own fault).  I couldn't understand why he wouldn't respond the way I wanted him to.  He had his own agenda, and it wasn't mine.  You could say he was sensitive.  Hmm.  Sounds like someone I know.

Here's an example conversation I might've had with him in the past.

Si ogles the mound of rice topped with beef and potato stew in my bowl.  "You're not really going to eat all those carbs, are you?  There must be 150 grams in that bowl!"
"I'll bolus for it.  I'm hungry, and this stuff is good!"
"Yeah, good luck with that.  Tell me how you feel afterward."
"Fine, I will."  I bolus and devour the whole bowl.  "Time for dessert.  I think there's one more serving of pudding in the fridge."
"More sugar?  You're asking for it."
"I'll bolus.  Quit your whining."
2 hours later...
"455?!  Why am I so high?  I bolused!"
"Told you so.  Now you have to correct."
"Ugh!  Why didn't the insulin work the first time like it was supposed to?"
2 hours later...
"79?  I'm low!  Now I gotta raid the fridge!  Why'd I eat all the pudding?"
"You're actually fine..."
"Where's the food?  I need SUGAR!"
"Sigh.  Maybe someday you'll learn.  You're going to get sick of this roller coaster and, when you do, you'll realize I'm actually your friend."

Turns out he was right.  I got sick of the roller coaster.  Si has shown me that he can't tolerate carbs.  I was doing so much harm to my body without even realizing it.  Si has helped me research and implement a better, healthier way of eating, which has also taught me to be even more careful about what goes onto my body, not just into it!  I'm more in tune with my body's needs, sensitivities, and strengths.  I don't think I could've done any of this without Si.  I wouldn't have cared enough.  He made me care about the body God gave me.
Now our conversations go more like this:

"Lunch time!  How about some hot dogs, an avocado, some pecans, a cheese stick, and a Bai drink?"
"Sounds good to me," Si nods in agreement.  "That's lots of yummy low carb foods."
"Should only need half a unit or so, maybe 1."
"Yesterday was great.  We stayed in range for most of the day."
"Yup, might need to take less Levemir overnight though.  We went into the 60s twice."
"You need to crack down on those protein spikes, too."
"I know.  Think we should try R for that, Si?" 
"Couldn't hurt."

Now I think I'll let Si say a few words.


Hey, guys.  Just wanted to say a few quick words.  Rachel's an awesome young lady.  I hope you know I've never meant to hurt her.  I just have some specific care requirements, which I understand are hard to fulfill when you're not properly trained.  Rachel did the best she could given the circumstances and the inadequate care she received from medical teams throughout her life.  I'm so proud of her for stepping off the roller coaster and taking charge of my needs (and hers).  Rachel and I are both pretty sensitive so I think we make a pretty good team.  I only wanted what was best for her.  It has just taken her a little while to realize that.  But now that she has I have seen so much growth in her, so much strength and commitment to taking care of me and herself.  While I can't really pinpoint an exact cause for my appearance in Rachel's life, I know that my friendship with her was not an accident.  I've helped her to grow as God has willed, and I know she'll continue to grow and help others as much as she can (because that's who she is and what she's like).  If you don't know her that well, I think you should give her a chance.  And don't be afraid of me.  I'm not contagious.  And I won't bite.  Much.  *wink*

Sunday, November 27, 2016

I am so thankful and have so much hope

I'm starting to have some inkling of how the Israelites felt after wandering in the desert for 40 years waiting for the Promised Land. 

Lost.  Confused.  Depressed.  Hopeless.  Abandoned.

I didn't have to wander nearly as long, but I still wrestled with all of those feelings.  I wandered around the bottom of a dark pit and almost gave up because I thought there was no hope.  No light.  No good could possibly be in store for me.

But I was wrong.

It was in my darkest moment that the Light of the Lord shone the brightest.  It was when I finally realized my dark pit was of my own doing that I knew I needed saving from myself.  It was when He told me His love would save me, if I chose to accept His gift of salvation, that I knew there was forgiveness.  It was when He reached out and turned my life around that I knew I was not forgotten.  Not abandoned.  Not without hope.

Everything made sense.  Everything felt right.  Everything was washed clean.

This was the start of something new, something beautiful.  I stepped off the path of destruction and onto the path of life.  My mind was renewed in more ways than one, and it continued to learn and grow as I absorbed new knowledge and wisdom.  I realized that anger toward God was a sin.  I blamed Him for allowing me to have diabetes, not realizing that He was planning to use it to bring good into my life.  I only chose to be selfish, to see it as an unfair punishment instead of as a tool to be used for a greater good.

Once He led me off that path of selfish bitterness, I started to see some of the reasons why I had been given such a condition.  And not just one condition, but three.  My eyes were opened to the truth: experience helps us grow and relate to others who are in the same place.  Who have no hope.  Who see no life apart from their misery.

The greatest testimonies are the ones that God orchestrates.  And He orchestrates them all.  Your testimony is no worse or better than mine.  It has been crafted by His hands for a purpose only you can fulfill.  If you see a need that you can fill, fill it.  If you see a dark pit that you can reach down into, reach down into it.  The person at the bottom needs light in their darkest moment, just as I did.  They need hope in a hopeless situation.  Don't doubt that you could be that person.  You are ONE with the Light of the World; you are not just a small flicker.

Diabetes is not a death sentence.  There is hope.  There is life, and it doesn't have to be a short, agonizingly painful life.  Complications can be prevented.  Health can be restored if you are ready to commit to what it takes to love your body and care for it.

"For no one ever hated his own flesh, but nourishes and cherishes it, just as Christ does the church."  (Ephesians 5:29)

Tuesday, November 1, 2016

National Diabetes Awareness Month 2016

November is National Diabetes Awareness Month.  Lots of people are doing different things to raise awareness.  I thought it would be fun to make this little chart.  
Since I usually test 10+ times a day, the number listed should actually be doubled = 74,240 finger sticks since I was dx'd with Type 1.  I have no clue how they figured out the Hours of Sleep Lost...I don't keep track of my sleep hours and didn't put anything into the page when it made this for me.  I'm sure I've lost months, maybe years, worth of sleep because of diabetes but I have no clue exactly how many.  At any rate, I hope this helps people see how much of an impact diabetes has on a person's life.  It's a rough, 24/7/365 disease that can kill quickly or slowly, depending on when it's discovered.  

I had my annual eye doctor appointment yesterday.  There were no significant changes, only slight ones in my vision.  I don't need new glasses, though, so I may just keep the ones I have.  Doctor said to keep up the good work with my numbers, which I certainly intend on doing.

Monday, October 17, 2016

Lab results

Last week I had blood drawn at my holistic doctor's office.  I also had a body comp done.  The results for that came back just fine...everything looks good.  Today I got the results of my blood work back.

Vitamin D is perfect, thanks to the supplements I've been taking (10,000 IU daily).  It came back at 82.1 ng/ml (optimal range 30-100 ng/ml).  My metabolic panel is all in range - liver, kidneys, potassium, sodium, etc. are all great!  No red flags anywhere. 

Still working to bring down inflammation, and the next step is to take a gut health test to see where I need help healing my gut.  That will also aid in reducing inflammation and improving blood sugar control.  The only thing is that the test is $900 and we're still trying to scrape the money together.  I'm not worried about it, though.  I will do everything I can to be as healthy as possible, especially as we plan for the future and having kids.

    "And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus."  Philippians 4:19

Saturday, October 15, 2016

Jesus knows the pain of our diseases

"Mankind was created to walk in divine health as he walked in obedience to the Lord. It is only from his disobedience that sickness and disease came upon him. ...Jesus never sinned and never had sickness until He became sin for us and then took our sickness and disease that we might have His righteousness and health." - Biblical Naturopathy, Rev. Bill Yeary.

Jesus was sinless His whole life.  He never experienced sickness or sin while He walked on the Earth.  He took on our sins and bore them for us as if He had sinned, but He was perfect and holy.  The sins and diseases of the world went with Him to the grave.   

Growing up I never felt like Jesus could understand what it was like to have Diabetes (or Celiac or Hashimoto's). After all, He'd never had them while He walked the earth. I'm amazed everyday by what I learn about Him...and I can see that He DOES understand because He took upon Him not only each and every one of our sins, but also each and every disease when He died for us on the cross. That's how much He loves much He wants us to be free from the disease of sin and death in body, spirit, and soul.

"For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin."  Hebrews 4:15

Thursday, October 6, 2016

I love/hate insurance

Insurance.  Everyone seems to have a love/hate relationship with it.  It's been pretty much great for me this year (except for not covering my holistic doctor) but now BCBS isn't going to be offering policies in my area for next year, so I have to find a new company. 

I love BCBS, and I'm really bummed to see them stop offering plans.  But it's not their fault.  Obamacare has completely messed up the insurance market.   

I'm trying to stock up on as many of my meds as possible in anticipation of high out of pocket costs for the beginning of 2017. 

Did you know that without insurance, I'd have to pay $636.99 for 2 vials of Levemir (2 month supply) and $77.78 for a month supply of my Armour Thyroid meds?  (With insurance, I got them for free today!)
I pay $55 a month for test strips, $13 for syringes, and $ for Apidra (when it's not free).  Not to mention all of my holistic supplements ($250+)! 

How do they expect us to be able to afford to live with these unreasonable prices?  We're not made of money, and I don't appreciate being charged an arm and a leg for medications that keep me alive!

Please, Lord, provide us with another good insurance company next year!