Why I Feel Like a Burden

I always have.  I probably always will. 

But now I think I know why:  Diabetes has always felt like a burden to me, on me.   A lonely, heavy burden.  I guess it's only natural that when I feel burdened, I feel like I am burdening others.  So I try not to be a burden and shoulder it myself.  But it's more than I can handle, and I stumble and fall and drop it all in a river of tears.  And what do I do after that?  I pick it back up and, if I don't take it to God, I try to handle it myself all over again.  If I do take it to God, I usually find myself taking it back from Him and falling into the same vicious cycle.  

No matter what I do, I always forget that I don't have to carry it alone.

"Cast your burden on the Lord, and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved."  Psalm 55:22

What a mess!

So Monday the 15th I went in to the lab to get my blood drawn for my appointment with Carrie, which was scheduled for the 17th.  However, due to the snowstorm that hit our area Tuesday and Wednesday, the office called me Wednesday morning to tell me they were closed and my appointment would have to be rescheduled (again!).  At least it wasn't my fault this time, but I'm going to have to wait until Feb 8 to get the results of my A1C.  Ugh. 

Also, I've been having some trouble with my new receiver.  It has been giving me the System Check Passed message every 2 days since I started using it on the 9th and last night it gave me an error message telling me to call Tech Support.  I just got off the phone with them but all they could tell me (since it's still working) was to give it time to sort itself out (as it seems to be out of warranty) and keep an eye on any other messages that pop up.  So I'm playing a wait-and-see game.  *sigh* 

New year, new receiver!

Last night, I had to say goodbye to my original Dexcom G4 receiver.  I noticed that the mini USB cable port had come loose and was pushed into the receiver case.  I could no longer plug it in to charge or download my data, nor could I get the port to go back into place.  The receiver also became unresponsive, despite have plenty of battery left.  I pulled out my new Dexcom receiver and turned it on, then calibrated it with my current sensor/transmitter.  Today, I put on the purple sparkly PumpPeelz skin I had been saving. 

Old on top, new on bottom

I am back in business.  My old receiver lasted me from August 2014 until January 2018.  It still beeped and vibrated!  I was blessed to have it as long as I did...3 years and 5 months!  Here's to another 3.5 years with my new one!