The Lord's Blessings

 

The Lord has blessed us with a house of our own:  

A 32 x 80 double wide with 4 bed, 2 bath, huge kitchen, large laundry room, a den with a fireplace (our school room), dining room with sliding glass door like I wanted, living room, and a large master bath!  We've also purchased a 1.05 acre lot to put our house on!

 

 

National Rainbow Baby Day - August 22

"The term rainbow baby refers to any baby born to parents after a previous pregnancy ended in a loss and comes from the idea that after a storm (the loss), comes sunshine (the pregnancy), and with it, a beautiful rainbow. You might see a lot of posts about it on social media, especially on August 22, which is National Rainbow Baby Day.

Rainbows, and rainbow babies, are a reminder that beautiful things are possible even after fear, uncertainty, and tragedy have happened. They’re also a reminder of how terrible things can make us more appreciative of good things when they occur.

Rainbow baby isn’t the only term that’s popular in the pregnancy and loss community. A double rainbow baby, as you might guess, is a baby born after you’ve had two losses. And a golden baby is a child born after a rainbow, implying that safely delivering two children in a row is equivalent to a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow."  (What to Expect When You’re Expecting a Rainbow Baby)

I've been wanting to write a post on this topic for a while now.  I was going to wait until Max's first birthday, but I guess with August 22 being National Rainbow Baby Day, I can write it sooner.  

While this article touches on the secular meaning of the term rainbow baby, I'd like to touch on the spiritual.  

The rainbow is the sign of God's promise to never again flood the whole earth with water.  

 

It's a promise God has kept, because He's a God who keeps His word.  

 

Max is, in every sense of the word, a rainbow baby.

 

Right before Sarah was born, God gave me a vision of a rainbow, along with her name.  

 

That rainbow signified a promise - God would give us another baby. 

Not one to replace Sarah, but one in addition to her.

 

It was that vision, that rainbow, that I held onto, even after we found out that Max was coming.  After all, we didn't know if Max was the baby God promised us, or not.  We faced all the doubt, fear, guilt, anger, questions, and uncertainty of parents who were both grieving and expecting, and met all those emotions with a small sliver of hope, a trust in God's promise, and a growing joy in the work of God's hands.

 

After the storm, there was a rainbow.  

 

And there was Max.

I Am Not A Good Communicator

 

 

I feel like this a lot of the time.  I struggled with living behind a mask for a long time - all through my teen years.  I lied a lot.  I put on a fake smile.  I hid my struggles.  And it was hard.  It was tiring.  It was isolating.  I couldn't figure out how to express myself.  I couldn't figure out how to voice my opinions in a way that was healthy because I felt like no one listened.  So I bottled things up, and let them stay bottled up, until I couldn't hold them in anymore.  

 

When I was finally presented with the Gospel, I gave my life to Christ and turned my behavior around.  I wasn't perfect, by any means, but I worked toward becoming more like Christ.  However, as the years went by, I discovered I was still holding onto resentment and bitterness from the mistreatment and traumas I'd experienced.  The toxic theologies, the brushing aside, the lack of understanding, and not being heard by those to whom I was trying to communicate my desires and concerns, particularly health care providers.  

 

I've heard it said that "hurt people hurt people," and I'm sure that could be said of me to some degree.  It seems my words and efforts to communicate come across in rude, presumptuous, and angry ways (which are not my intention!).  But to honest, I don't KNOW HOW to communicate well.  I'm not a good communicator.  I'm a creative writer, not a public speaker.  I was never taught how to communicate in a way that gets my point across without hurting feelings.  (Debate and speech class don't count.)  I just state facts, state opinions based on the Bible, and let people take it as they will.  But that's not the best way to communicate.   

 

   After a stressful weekend of bickering amongst family and friends, I decided I wanted to do something to change the way I approach communication.  So I bought this book as a first step.  I'm not quite halfway through it, but I'm starting to see just how Verbal Judo might help me.  I don't expect to get it right every time right after finishing the book, but I'll be working on it, little by little.   

 

 

Sarah's Birth Story - sad

 This story makes me mad.  I hope it makes you mad too.

I feel like I'm a product of the medical system.  I wasn't born with Type 1 diabetes, Hashimoto's, and Celiac.  These 3 autoimmune diseases developed when I was 8 years old, after I had been fully vaccinated.  Due to my MTHFR gene mutation, I believe they are vaccine injuries.  Now I'm trapped in the medical system, dependent on man-made pharma drugs - insulin and thyroid pills - in order to stay alive.  

I also hate how these conditions force me to be labelled "high risk."  I feel like this tries to steal my hope of having the birth I want.  I don't like having to depend on the system in order to have a healthy baby.  But I know another loss when we've suffered one is more than we want to endure.  Especially since we were so close.  So close to the end.  So close to the beginning...

They wanted to admit me, saying I had pre-eclampsia (swelling, high BP, high protein, which oddly didn't register on my tests at home).  I HATE hospitals so that was the last place I wanted to be.

They said policy required either a COVID test or wearing a mask 24/7.  I told them I didn't want either.  It made me mad that they made me choose - it felt like an ultimatum (test came back negative, which I learned a week later).  I signed papers stating I refused an episiotomy, vacuum, and forceps (I crossed them out).

Sunday Night
5:35pm - Ultrasound could not pick up heartbeat.  They said I had high blood pressure and protein in my urine - pre-eclampsia.  We decided to stay the night.  They moved us to a labor and delivery room shortly after.
7:49pm - 1 cm, 50% effaced.  Baby was at -2 station.  Chose COVID test over mask (only for me because I was being admitted.  Hubby didn't have to do either but wore a mask when going in and out of the hospital - totally stupid).  
9:25pm - Hooked up to magnesium IV and catheter; had natural contractions through the night.

Monday
9:45am - The doctor I was under told me that my natural contractions had gotten me to 2 cm.  
10:10am - They broke my waters to get things moving.  There was some blood in the amniotic fluid.    
1:43pm - Pitocin increased intensity of contractions.  Dr. agreed to keep it at the lowest dose needed.  It was only increased once after starting.  
3:12pm - The nurses helped me breathe through contractions as they got stronger and more frequent.  They also gave me a cotton ball with lavender essential oil on it to help me relax.  Hubby kept trying to get me fed, fearing that I wouldn't have enough energy for labor and birth.  The nurses said I could only have popsicles and ice chips since they were smaller in volume than liquids.  I still managed to drink the water from the melted ice chips throughout the day with no problems.  Doula was not happy they wouldn't give me broth to drink.  I had 3 popsicles with crappy ingredients.  
4:15pm - I was at 7 cm, 90% effaced.      
6:28pm - Contractions reached 8/10 intensity; slightly calmed down but sorta felt like pushing.  
6:49pm - 8.5 cm
8:17pm - New nurse Sherry suggested stadol to help me sleep through the next 2 hours before pushing.  She said it would make me sleepy, take the edge off, and then I'd have more energy to push once I reached 10 cm upon waking.  She also said I'd need oxygen with it, but not before I consented to it.  I ended up agreeing to it, even though I failed to take the time to look it up for myself.  She didn't inform me that it was actually an opioid, which I was trying to avoid.  I was given the dose and ended up jolting awake every now and then.  Come to find out she had increased the pitocin by 2 without telling me, even though we weren't looking to do so.  It caused my contractions to become unbearable and I asked for the doctor to confirm that we were still following the plan.  We were informed that the doctor was busy with 2 other laboring moms and it would be a while before she could come.  I had to have my husband tell nurse Sherry that it needed to be dropped back down to what it was as I was unable to handle the intensity.  I couldn't sleep much; the stadol tried to wipe me out but I kept going in and out of sleep.  We also informed her that we were not doing antibiotics, as it seemed she was missing a few pieces of our care plan and was following standard operating procedure.  
8:48pm - I reached 10 cm.  I started pushing on my back.
9:06pm - Baby's head was in position.  I asked to be on hands and knees.  Mom tied my hair back.  Hubby gave me ice chips as I asked for them.  My mouth was so dry.  
10:13pm - They made me switch back to laying on my back with my legs in stirrups and holding hand grips because they were convinced that was the best position for getting baby out (since she kept going in and out while on my hands and knees and I couldn't seem to push hard enough to get her out).  I hated it!  I felt like I was on display for everyone to see.  I'm a very private person and feel so violated.  
I pushed with contractions, breathing in between.  My mom and hubby counted while I pushed, trying to reach 10 each time.  I got 2-3 pushes in per contraction, and my mom was a huge help in coaching me through them.  Toward the end they claimed that baby was stuck and started prepping for an episiotomy.  I told them right then and there, "No, I don't want that," and they told me baby wouldn't come out due to shoulder dystocia.  Can a dead baby, who can't move or maneuver herself to help things along, really have shoulder dystocia?  So they cut me against my TWICE-STATED desire to not be.  At one point, they told me to look down - I did and there was her dark-haired head!    
10:50pm - She was finally born.  They wrapped her in a blanket and placed her on my chest.  They prepped the cord for cutting and hubby cut it.  I held her with DP standing next to me, and we admired her little face, fingers, and toes.  The nurse confirmed she was a girl.  She had a full head of dark hair.  Some of her soft skull on top was indented.  She had peeling on her face, hands, and feet.  Her skin was bright red.  She had my button nose.  

The nurse stitched me up while we were holding her.  Even with the lidocaine for numbing it still hurt.  They all gave my stomach a few firm pushes to deliver the placenta, which I never felt or saw coming out.  (I wish they had not done this and will make sure it doesn't happen again.)  They whisked it off to the lab for pathology.  After all that was done, they took her to be weighed and measured, then dressed her in a beautiful baby-sized dress made from a donated wedding gown.  I held her some more and also gave DP a turn while Mom took pictures of her and us.  

We started thinking of saving our original boy and girl names for children that would join our family in the future.  The night before she was born, I saw a rainbow in my mind and felt God impressing the name Noah in case of a boy, since we were saving the gender reveal for birth.  Even though we don't know the name of Noah's wife, He gave me a different name that was perfectly suited for our firstborn if she was a girl: Sarah.   

I believe God will give us more babies in the future, because babies that come after a miscarriage or stillbirth are known as rainbow babies and it seemed as though God was reminding me of His covenant, His promise.  DP agreed that he liked Sarah and, knowing that God had spoken to me in the past, felt that Sarah was the right choice for her.  The issue then became coming up with her middle name.  Should we keep the middle name Grace, or come up with a different one?

After some time with her, we let them take her and started getting settled for the night.  A new nurse let DP sneak me a few pieces of deli turkey breast to get some protein in me.  We slept off and on in the room until about 4 or 5 am, when they needed to move us to the room next door so another mom could take our spot.  They monitored my blood pressure every half hour to make sure it was going down and my urine output to make sure it met their minimum.  Everything was looking good.  

Tuesday
We spent Tuesday resting.  We slept off and on with me being on strict bedrest (catheter = no getting up).  Around 11am (12 hours after giving birth), they removed the magnesium IV and catheter.  Shortly after, my mom came back and DP ran home to take a shower and get some food.  I had a nice long talk with her about all kinds of things.  When DP returned, we discussed some preliminary funeral plans.  Would the pathology report give us answers as to what caused her to pass?  Or would we need an autopsy?  Could we afford one?  Would the hospital do one for us?  We finally started getting some answers.  The hospital would need her death to fall under certain criteria, and it didn't seem to.  A private autopsy would cost $6,200.  That put it way out of reach for us.  

We opted to just hope the placenta pathology report would yield some answers, and we took whatever opinions we could get from the doctors.  A partial placental abruption seemed possible due to some blood in the amniotic fluid when they broke my water.  Pre-eclampsia (edema and high blood pressure).  Diabetes.  Who was to say for sure what caused her to pass?

Wednesday
DP prayed about her middle name and came across 1 Peter 5:10.  After sharing the verse with me, we both agreed that her middle name would stay Grace.  It would be something she could share with her sister Aurora.  We told the staff so they could update their records.  
After monitoring my BP all day and night to make sure it was improving, they discharged us at noon.  It was so good to finally leave.  I was told to come back in a week for a short follow up appointment to make sure my BP was still looking good.  
       
In closing:
I obviously had some issues with nurse Sherry.  
The pitocin increase and the episiotomy were my big ones.  I also didn't like them stitching me up or the stomach pressing to deliver the placenta.
I hated having to choose between wearing a mask and the COVID test!  I am the patient.  Screw stupid, nonsense policies.  No means no.  I'm the boss!  
I didn't like being stuck in bed with no way to move around.  I didn't get to deliver in the position I wanted.  
No food or energy through labor left me exhausted.  I'd had less than 2 hours of sleep the night before.
Is shoulder dystocia a fair label to give a dead baby?  It doesn't seem right to me. 

Dr. Ballard and Dr. Thompson agreed to keep pitocin at the lowest dose needed.  

This was not communicated to all of the nurses who cared for me, specifically nurse Sherry.  I had wanted to avoid opioids and she did not give me informed consent about the fact that stadol is an opioid, nor was I told I would need oxygen before it was given.  I was only told it would take the edge off and help me sleep.  I ended up jolting awake every so often.  Come to find out she had increased the pitocin by 2 without telling me, even though we weren't looking to do so.  It caused my contractions to become unbearable and I asked for the doctor to confirm that we were still following the plan.  We were informed that the doctor was busy with 2 other laboring moms and it would be a while before she could come.  I had to have my husband tell nurse Sherry that it needed to be dropped back down to what it was as I was unable to handle the intensity.  

I signed paperwork refusing an episiotomy, but toward the end of labor and pushing they started prepping for one.  I told them right then and there, "No, I don't want that," but they cut me against my TWICE-STATED desire to not be.

The nurse stitched me up while we were holding our baby.  Even with the lidocaine for numbing it still hurt.  They all gave my stomach a few firm pushes to deliver the placenta, which I never felt or saw coming out.  I wish they had not done this and will make sure it doesn't happen again.  It felt very rude as I was not given any warning and was trying to hold my dead baby.  Insensitive on their part.    

I hated having to choose between wearing a mask and the COVID test!  I had no symptoms and was not sick.  Besides the fact that I am the patient.  Screw stupid, nonsense policies.  No means no.  I'm the boss!  
I didn't like being stuck in bed with no way to move around.  I didn't get to deliver in the position I wanted.  Nothing went the way I wanted.  I did not feel heard, understood, or respected.   
No food or energy through labor left me exhausted.  I'd had less than 2 hours of sleep the night before.  This was not right.  

I hate hospitals and doctors because I have always been mistreated.  It's because of the medical system that I have the 3 incurable autoimmune diseases that I have.  I do not trust any doctor that follows the mainstream medical system and its teachings. 

Some answers - finally!

Last week, I finally got some much sought after answers: which vaccines did I receive as a child?  I was able to obtain my shot record from my old school after a visit to my pediatrician in December yielded nothing (they only keep records for 7 years?  What?). 

According to my records, I received 12 doses of 8 vaccines between 2 months of age and 5 years:

5 DTP (3 in 1)

4 polio

2 MMR (3 in 1)

1 Hib (HbPV - PedVaxHIB)

According to my mom, I had always been a sweet, happy, and obedient little girl.  I didn't even go through a Terrible Twos phase.  Instead, after I turned 7 I became very difficult to deal with. 

A year later, a month shy of my 9th birthday, I was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes and what would later be properly diagnosed as Hashimoto's Thyroiditis. 

At age 24, in 2012, I received my Celiac Disease diagnosis, although we somewhat suspected it as early as 2008.

Those are all autoimmune diseases.  My working theory is that the attitude change was due to a delayed vaccine reaction as well as gut imbalance.  That then progressed into my immune system being compromised and my autoimmunity issues manifesting.  With my MTHFR gene mutation, it was only a matter of time before my body pulled the trigger.  I'm surprised it held out that long.

I guess it's really not surprising that all of the vaccines I received have been linked to Type 1 Diabetes.  MMR is also a big contributor to gut issues - hence Celiac.  Behavioral and digestive issues can trigger thyroid diseases.  Everything's connected.   

DTP has been associated with:  Type 1 Diabetes
Polio has been associated with:  Type 1 Diabetes

MMR has been associated with:  Type 1 Diabetes, behavioral issues, gut inflammation, immune system disorders
HIB has been associated with:  Type 1 Diabetes    

Issues with Vaccines

1. Childhood vaccine ingredients include:
*Aborted Fetal Tissue (Human Diploid Cells)
Aluminum
Thimerosal (Mercury)
Formaldehyde
Polysorbate 80
MSG
Antibiotics
Egg protein
Monkey Kidney
Fetal Bovine (Cow) Cells
Dog, Pig & Chick DNA
https://www.cdc.gov/vaccines/pubs/pinkbook/downloads/appendices/b/excipient-table-2.pdf

*The CDC has since taken several ingredients off their website, so here is the original list: https://web.archive.org/web/20170618141031if_/https://www.cdc.gov/vaccines/pubs/pinkbook/downloads/appendices/B/excipient-table-2.pdf

2. There is zero liability from vaccine manufacturers since the National Childhood Vaccine Injury Act was passed in 1986. https://www.congress.gov/bill/99th-congress/house-bill/5546

3. A federal excise tax is placed on each vaccine given that goes toward the National Vaccine Injury Compensation Program.
https://www.hrsa.gov/sites/default/files/vaccinecompensation/resources/84521booklet.pdf
 
It has paid out over 4 BILLION dollars in damages to families who have been injured to vaccines, with $250,000 paid if their child dies.
https://www.hrsa.gov/sites/default/files/hrsa/vaccine-compensation/data/data-statistics-vicp.pdf

4. There is a Vaccine Adverse Event Reporting System (VAERS) to report adverse reactions after the administration of vaccines and only a small fraction are actually reported. It is one of the ways the CDC monitors the safety of vaccines after it is on the market.
- https://vaers.hhs.gov
- https://vaers.hhs.gov/data/dataguide.html
- https://www.cdc.gov/vaccinesafety/ensuringsafety/monitoring/index.html

5. In 1983, 11 vaccines, 24 total doses, were recommended by the CDC.
As of 2016, 56 vaccines, 74 total doses are recommended by age 18.
- https://www.cdc.gov/vaccines/schedules/index.html
- https://www.activistpost.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/10/image-1.jpg

6. Hepatitis B is spread through sex, sharing needles, direct contact with blood or birth (by infected mother). The first dose of the Hep B vaccine is recommended at birth, without testing the mother for the infection.
- https://www.cdc.gov/hepatitis/hbv/bfaq.htm#bFAQc01
- https://www.cdc.gov/vaccines/schedules/hcp/imz/child-adolescent.html#birth-15

7. Anytime a medical intervention is performed, parents are to be given the right to informed consent of the associated risks and side effects. This is not the case with vaccines. Generally, an information pamphlet is given after the vaccination is administered.
- https://www.ama-assn.org/delivering-care/ethics/informed-consent
- https://www.nvic.org/vaccine-memorial/informed-consent.aspx

8. In 2011, the Supreme Court deemed vaccinations to be “unavoidable unsafe.”
https://www.supremecourt.gov/opinions/10pdf/09-152.pdf

9. As of July 9, 2018, the Informed Consent Action Network (ICAN) filed a lawsuit against the U.S. Department of Health and Human Services (HHS) for failure to conduct safety studies every 2 years as mandated by the Childhood Vaccine Injury Act of 1986. No report has been filed in over 30 years. https://www.icandecide.org/wp-content/uploads/2019/09/Stipulated-Order-copy-1.pdf

10. Vaccines have not been evaluated for carcinogenic (cancer causing) or mutagenic (ability to mutate) potential or for impairment of infertility. They also have never been tested on pregnant women. *See section 13.1 and 8.1 on most inserts.
- https://www.fda.gov/vaccines-blood-biologics/vaccines/vaccines-licensed-use-united-states
- https://www.fda.gov/media/74035/download
- https://www.fda.gov/media/75191/download

11. Infant mortality rate is an important indicator of the health of a nation. The United States has one of the highest infant mortality rate of any developed country and it also has the strictest vaccination laws.
- https://www.cdc.gov/nchs/data/nvsr/nvsr63/nvsr63_05.pdf
- https://apps.who.int/immunization_monitoring/globalsummary/schedules

12. We are naturally exposed to microbes (microorganisms) in the environment. When a microbe and its toxins are ingested or applied topically, the body’s natural defenses protect its ability to cause harm. When it is injected, it bypasses the body's normal defense mechanism and makes it likely to cause a biological reaction, such a fever, shock or changes in physiological functions.
https://www.fda.gov/inspections-compliance-enforcement-and-criminal-investigations/inspection-technical-guides/pyrogens-still-danger

13. Aluminum is a known neurotoxin and high exposure may be harmful to one’s health. The FDA’s maximum limit for aluminum given in an IV is 25 mcg and even less for small babies. The Hepatitis B vaccine alone has at least 225 mcg.
- https://www.chop.edu/centers-programs/vaccine-education-center/vaccine-ingredients/aluminum
- https://www.accessdata.fda.gov/scripts/cdrh/cfdocs/cfCFR/CFRSearch.cfm?fr=201.323
- https://thinklovehealthy.com/2017/06/22/aluminum-in-vaccines-history-and-toxicity/

14. Pediatricians receive incentives for a percentage of children who are fully vaccinated (page 16).
- http://www.whale.to/c/2016-BCN-BCBSM-Incentive-Program-Booklet.pdf
- https://www-es.cahealthwellness.com/content/dam/centene/cahealthwellness/pdfs/2015_Provider_Incentive_Training_Presentation.pdf

15. The CDC owns patents for over 30+ vaccines. *See link to patents
https://steemit.com/vaccines/@canadian-coconut/patents-that-cdc-owns-for-vaccines-conflict-of-interest-biased-towards-profit-and-not-public-health

Why We Won't Vaccinate

I have been researching vaccines for 6 years now and I would like this post to be an encouragement to those of you who are wondering if your opinion can really make a difference.  In such a confusing and broken world, it sometimes seems like our little drop in the ocean doesn’t really mean much.  But a light in the darkness always shines brighter than having no light at all.  And when hundreds, thousands, hundreds of thousands, and millions of lights all come together, the darkness doesn’t stand a chance.

I’m Rachel and I have the homozygous 1298 MTHFR gene mutation and 3 autoimmune diseases.  I was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes a month shy of my 9th birthday, in 1996.  I also have Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis and Celiac disease.  My siblings and I were vaccinated according to the schedule, but as my mom went on to have more kids (8 in total, of which I’m the oldest) she began to question vaccines along the way.  In 1998, Dr. Andrew Wakefield’s paper was published and my mom got wind of it.  My aunt also planted a seed in her mind about the possible connection between diabetes and the MMR vaccine.  My mom opted to not give the MMR to one of my little sisters due to my diabetes diagnosis.  My other younger siblings also received fewer vaccines than the 4 older kids.  The pediatrician that we had been seeing since I was born gave her grief for her choice not to vaccinate, saying she was a horrible mother.  She left the practice and never looked back.  

When I got married almost 7 years ago, I realized the method I’d been taught about treating my diabetes with a high carb diet and industrial amounts of insulin wasn’t working and decided to take back my health and pursue better blood sugar control for the sake of my future children.  That led me to finding Dr. Richard K. Bernstein, a low carb diabetic doctor, and The Life Training Institute, a Christian health program that trains people to pursue holistic healthcare according to biblical principles.  In that program, I came across two paragraphs on vaccines, including a section by Sherri Tenpenny.

From there, I went on to hear about the Truth about Vaccines docu-series, which changed my whole understanding about just how awful vaccines are and the corruption that’s working behind the scenes to force them on us.  I found several Christian articles and blog posts on the topic of how they go against my faith as a Christian.  A whole new world opened up for me and I was so surprised that I had only heard a few people talking about it.  But those few people were instrumental drops in the ocean that made a ripple that reached me.

Now I’ve shown my husband The Truth about Vaccines and his mind is being opened to the dangers, risks, and corruption.  He was fine with them before, but he’s also a logical, analytical type, and he’s appalled by what he’s learning and can’t agree with injecting me or our kids with anything that hasn’t been proven safe.  He is disgusted by the ingredients that are used, and we both can’t stand the fact that babies are being sacrificed on the altar of allopathic medicine. 

I am also blessed to have a Christian holistic doctor in my area that expressly told me to not get any vaccines.  The fact that I received vaccines as a kid, have the MTHFR gene mutation, and now have 3 autoimmune diseases just adds up in my mind.  MTHFR loaded the gun and vaccines pulled the trigger.  Thankfully, my doctor is helping me heal and detox from the damage that’s been done.

I plan to protect my kids from vaccines and I pray that you do too.  Please don’t ever think that your opinion can’t change someone’s mind.  It may be just the thing that does.  Wives, you have no idea how influential your opinion can be to your husband.  Husbands are called to live in understanding with their wives and love them as they love their own bodies.  Tell your husband there is something that is weighing heavily on your mind and you need him to hear you out and investigate the risks of vaccines.  You may be the only one who can influence him, so don’t underestimate yourself.  Above all, pray that God will open his heart and mind to hear you and your concerns, and change his heart so that it softens towards you.  He cannot be an effective leader of the home if he does not have all the facts from both sides, and researching the risks is absolutely essential in making an informed decision.  This is how I got my husband’s attention, even though vaccines are a topic of which he is not interested or fond.

Vaccines go against our faith in Christ.
They contain aborted fetal cells, foreign blood and DNA, heavy metals, carcinogens, mutagens, allergens, and other ingredients that are not good for the body and are contaminated in their production process. We do not believe in injecting any of these substances into our bodies. We do not believe in making what is clean “unclean” by vaccinating with ingredients that desecrate the body. We believe that our bodies are the Temple of the Holy Spirit and we are commanded to care for our bodies in a way that brings glory and honor to God. Injecting unwholesome ingredients clearly goes against this belief. We believe that God made our bodies fearfully and wonderfully, and there is nothing we need to do to “improve” on His original design. We believe in strengthening and caring for our bodies naturally without synthetic and chemical drugs.

I am a high risk individual.
My husband and son both have one copy of the 677 MTHFR gene mutation and one of the 1298 mutations.  I have a homozygous 1298 MTHFR mutation and 3 autoimmune diseases. This means that we cannot detox very well and are prone to injury from drugs, heavy metals, and toxins. In fact, my autoimmune diseases are vaccine injuries, and they were triggered by the gene mutation after receiving my childhood vaccines.
Who is "susceptible" [to vaccine-induced autoimmunity/injury] is the subject of the paper entitled, "Predicting post-vaccination autoimmunity: Who might be at risk?" It lists four categories of people:
1. those who have had a previous autoimmune reaction to a vaccine,
2. anyone with a medical history of autoimmunity,
3. patients with a history of allergic reactions,
4. anyone at high risk of developing autoimmune disease, including anyone with a family history of autoimmunity, presence of auto-antibodies which are detectable by blood tests and other factors including low vitamin D and smoking.

MTHFR mutations are linked to vaccine injury risk. "The toxins in the vaccine excipient ingredients need to be detoxed back out. They cause oxidative stress in the body because they slow down methylation. Then if a child takes Tylenol it lowers glutathione even more which a person needs to detox. This is why people with MTHFR [mutations] have an issue with shots and tend to be sensitive to medicine. They have trouble making glutathione from lower levels of folate and B complex so their methylation is slower. If methylation is slower immune function is compromised. Methylation literally rules everything in a person's body, whether MTHFR is present or not. Every cell methylates every second. Vaccines hinder that. NIH said to Congress on CSPAN that those with methylation issues are at greater risk for severe vaccine injury."

Vaccines are not safety tested.
They are considered biologics and are not run through the same rigorous trials as drugs. A “vaccinated vs. unvaccinated” study has never been conducted. No one has ever done a double-blind placebo controlled study on single or multiple-dose vaccines given at the same time. The current CDC schedule has never been tested as a whole. Vaccines are tested against adjuvants (or other vaccine ingredients) such as aluminum, first. They are added to the schedule after only a few days of follow-up. Then those vaccines that have been deemed “safe” are used to test against new vaccines.
“Vaccines are a type of ‘unavoidably unsafe’ product; that is, a vaccine is a product that is incapable of being made safe for its intended and ordinary use.” US SUPREME COURT

Vaccine manufacturers have immunity from legal litigation.
They cannot be sued for damages if a vaccine injures or kills someone. “The Court in Bruesewitz notes that NCVIA (National Childhood Vaccine Injury Act) expressly eliminates liability for a vaccine’s unavoidable, adverse side effects:

“No vaccine manufacturer shall be liable in a civil action for damages arising from a vaccine-related injury or death associated with the administration of a vaccine after October 1, 1988, if the injury or death resulted from side effects that were unavoidable even though the vaccine was properly prepared and was accompanied by proper directions and warnings.” 42 U.S.C.A. § 300aa-22(1).

And so, the Court engages in bottom-up thinking, reasoning backwards from its desired outcome. The Court takes as true the premise that vaccines are unavoidably unsafe.”

Vaccines are founded on false science.



The Germ Theory by Louis Pasteur “is the basis of the whole [allopathic] medical model of disease and healing. At the end of his life, Pasteur admitted that his theory was a fraud.” It is, in fact, the Terrain Theory that has been proven to be scientifically sound. This theory states that it is the condition/quality of the terrain in which the germ (bacteria, fungus, virus, etc.) is found that determines the health of the host.

“Most of the germs which enter our bodies from the outside are quickly killed by the immune system. But it is the microorganisms which live permanently in our bodies that cause us to get sick. And they cause sickness because we provide them with a rich growth medium so that they can mutate and transform themselves into deadly bacteria, fungus, and viruses. So you see, whether or not we get sick and die has very little to do with what germ we catch, but has everything to do with whether we keep our bodies free of the dead matter which these germs feed on.”

“Dr. Alec Burton writes, "DO GERMS CAUSE DISEASE? Or could it be the other way around...first, the disease, then the germs. Natural Hygiene contends that germs do not cause disease. They are not the originators. Most diseases occur when people allow themselves to become enervated, that is, low in nerve energy. As a consequence, the organs of excretion fail to function normally and waste material accumulates in the body. When this waste continues to build up, exceeding the body's toleration point, a crisis arises. The body, to offset this overabundance of poisonous matter, begins to react. The result of this reaction is sometimes a cold, the flu, pneumonia, or some such, depending on the individual. At this crisis point of elimination, germs may or may not be present. They are sure to come later, not to attack, but to assist in the cleanup or cleansing process."

Dr. Virginia Vetrano writes, "Hygienists object to the germ theory of disease because germs do not cause disease. They may be present in disease processes, and they may complicate a disease with their waste products which can be very toxic at times, but the germ or virus alone is never the sole cause of disease."” (A Faulty Medical Model: The Germ Theory)

By vaccinating against the germ we think causes the illness (for example, measles virus) we are admitting that we are buying into the false science that the measles virus causes measles when, in reality, a person may be exposed to the virus and never contract the illness. This is especially true if they were exposed in the past and developed natural immunity to it.  With a strong immune system and a terrain that prevents the illness from finding nutrition, we prevent the infection or effectively fight it off.

Immunity can never be achieved through vaccination.
“Since vaccines are given by injection, they bypass the normal immune pathway and therefore do not trigger the cellular immune system (TH1), which science shows to be the main component necessary to create immunity.”

“Herd immunity can only come from naturally caught illnesses — NOT from vaccines. Some people may be old enough to remember that just 20 years ago, measles and chickenpox were benign illnesses that, for centuries, were a rite of passage for children.

Herd immunity is only proven in groups where the population was exposed to an illness through the natural immune pathway and has NEVER been proven to exist within vaccinated populations.

Plus, as vaccine inserts clearly state: not all people vaccinated develop an antibody response, which as we now know is not immunity anyway. Therefore the idea of herd immunity through vaccination is pure theory and myth.

Just because it’s contagious doesn't mean it’s deadly. In fact, a lot of research (studies here) shows a health benefit of these typical childhood illnesses — like reducing cancer risk, lowering risk of heart disease and reducing dementia risk.

Vaccines create temporal (short-term) antibodies ONLY. This is the sole requirement from the FDA in order to get approval to sell the vaccine. If you read the vaccine product insert written by the pharmaceutical company that creates the vaccine, it clearly states the increase in temporal antibodies as the basis for proof the vaccine works.

It also gives the percentage of people that had an increase in antibodies after the vaccination. Sometimes this number is quite low in the 50% range, defying any real herd immunity protection theory.

But science has long known that antibodies alone do NOT create real immunity. Some people with high levels of antibodies can be exposed to an illness and still get sick, while others without antibodies can be exposed and not get sick. Dr. Merrill Chase, nicknamed the Grandfather of Immunology for his pioneering work, did clear-cut research on this issue back in the 1950s. His results are clear: antibody levels don’t determine immunity.” (Vaccines and Immunity: What Does The Real Science Show?)

Vaccines cannot offer lifelong immunity (which is why boosters are given) and do not work on everyone (some people have no immunity of any kind after vaccination). Vaccines bypass the body’s normal immune system (through inhalation) and work by suppressing the TH1 branch of your immune system (which is responsible for defending against cellular viruses, bacteria, yeast, and cancer) and overstimulating your TH2 branch (which responds to toxins, allergens, normal bacteria, and parasites). This causes an imbalance in the immune system, modifying the reactivity of the system toward TH2 dominance, resulting in autoimmune disorders and susceptibility to catching more illnesses.

My latest appointment and the results

On Wednesday, Jan 29, I had my appointment with my thyroid doctor to go over the cholesterol panel, as well as the thyroid results.  She was over all impressed with everything.  Homocysteine was perfect.  Vit D was high (126) so she said to cut it in half.  My serum copper was in range.  Kidneys and liver are healthy.   

Even though my TSH is suppressed, my other thyroid levels are all normal.  We decided to not adjust my Armour dose. 

My cholesterol looks pretty good for the most part.  My CRP came back slightly high, but I have started taking my fish oil and other anti-inflammatory supplements again along with my detox regimen.

ACZ Nano Zeolite spray
GI Detox
Alamax
Boswelya
Probiotic
Methyl Protect
Nordic Naturals fish oil
(I also want to get my Curcuplex, which is turmeric/curcumin)

I've not been impressed with any mentions of statins, and I've told her I'm not on birth control and statins didn't work well for me in the past.  For now, I'll stick with what I'm doing. 

She did comment that I'm the healthiest Type 1 she's ever treated for anything.  Even though my numbers haven't been well-controlled for all my life, she said most diabetics are never well-controlled.  I do still need to get my A1C down. 

I've also talked to my holistic doctor about the low dose naltrexone she recommended.  She's going to order me some from her compounding pharmacy.  It's supposed to help the body heal from autoimmune attacks, especially thyroid diseases.  So I'm going to give it a try and see how it works.

We are also getting Hubby tested for the MTHFR gene mutation.  Stay tuned...   

Re-doing my labwork, and adding some new ones

I had my lab work appointment this morning for getting my cholesterol panel rechecked (since the last time we sent it in the lab wouldn't run it due to the blood vials not being labeled with my name).  So I'm getting a full cholesterol panel, along with the inflammatory markers, particle size/density, etc. 

My holistic doctor also wanted me to get my Vit D3 and homocysteine checked and, due to my high copper levels, my thyroid doctor wanted to run a Wilson's disease test.  I'm also getting my thyroid levels rechecked.  So all the tests. 

They had to draw about a pint of blood, but part way through I started feeling my arm fall asleep and slightly light headed.  I told them I had to get the lab work done today because I wouldn't be in town for the holidays.  The nurse stopped the blood draw and they got me water and found an empty room with a table I could lie down on.  After a few minutes, the nurse came in to check on me, and finished drawing the remaining vials.  I stayed on the table and asked her to send my hubby in, as he was sitting in the waiting room and had no idea what was going on.  I finally started feeling better and we prepared to leave.  My doctor came back in and went over all the tests we were doing and wished us a Merry Christmas on the way out.

Hopefully we'll have the results in a week or two.    

Heavy Metals results and feeling super blessed!

I had a phone appointment with my holistic doctor today to go over my heavy metals lab work.  Surprisingly, my aluminum and mercury levels are lower than expected (maybe the little bit of GI Detox supplement I took got rid of some?).  Arsenic is also low, but lead is high, as is copper, manganese, and zinc.  Calcium is also on the high side, despite my significant lack of dairy aside from butter and cheese.       

I asked her about the Advanced TRS detox supplement, which has been recommended by some people on FB for those wanting to detox from vaccines.  She said I could use it if I wanted, but recommended trying to get some more information from the company first as there's not very much on their website.  She also recommended a different detox formula that she uses called ACZ Nano Zeolite, and said I'm free to look into that one as well.

She told me about low dose naltrexone for autoimmune disease healing, which sounds like something I need!  She said it helps the immune system calm down after attacking itself and might help me with my blood sugar control and thyroid balance.

She even asked me when my last vaccine was.  "I don't remember, but I know I got them as a kid.  I have been doing research on them for the past two years and am now firmly against them."
"Good, don't get any," she said. 

My heart literally leapt for joy after hearing her say that.  Doctors like her are so few and far between.  She asked if we were still planning on having kids, and I said yes, just trying to figure out finances.  She totally echoed my own sentiments on the matter, saying that we would never be financially ready and that we should trust God because He will provide.  She said to let her know when I'm pregnant and she and the other ladies in the office will be praying for us.  I am so beyond blessed to have her on my health care team.  They have been nothing but encouraging, supportive, and affirming in my choices and beyond instrumental in helping me get my health back on track.  I cannot praise Nan, Kirby, Megan, and all the others at Seasons Wellness enough.   

October Appointment

This will be quick and short because it's almost time for bed.  I had my appointment with Carrie today and my A1C came back at 7.6 (endo) / 7.0 (Dr. B).  That's a 171 mg/dl average bg.  So higher than in June.

My thyroid doctor is running a full (and I mean FULL) cholesterol panel with all the bells and whistles (particle size, inflammatory markers, etc.) and I told her I want a calcium score done.  My cholesterol did come back lower at my endo's which is something that made her happy, though I'm still not convinced lower is better.  So I'll hold my judgement until the full panel comes back.

My holistic doctor also sent me the heavy metal test I'm going to do to see how much crap is in my system.  I'll probably do it on Saturday since it's easier to do the urine collection at home (and not at work).  So here's to collecting data! 

Last night's low scare

Thankfully, scary, crazy things don't happen to me very often.  Last night was a poignant reminder to both me and my hubby that the daily fight for my life with diabetes is real.

Even though many people in this world have to bear the temporary burden of living with diabetes, not many non-diabetics truly appreciate or understand what their diabetic companions have to deal with on a daily basis...just to stay alive.  That's usually the case with things in general - unless something hits you on a personal level, you don't have any sort of idea what it's like for someone else.  Experience makes you wiser.

Last night, at 11:43pm, I was getting my number and preparing to go to sleep for the night.  My glucometer read 182, while Dex read 167.  Because Dex is notoriously likely to be off from my actual number, I opted to trust my glucometer and treated my blood sugar with the usual 2 unit correction via IM.  The insulin usually starts working within 5-10 minutes, and stays in my system for no more than 2 hours.  I set my alarm to wake me at 2am so I could see how well it had worked and then took my Levemir shot of 8 units.  It bled ever so slightly, which is rare, but it didn't really bother me.  As I readied myself for sleep (I think I read a quick chapter in my book?), I started to feel a shaking sensation. 

I checked Dex, and he showed a steeper than expected BG line trending down at a fast rate.  At 12:13am, I checked my number again.  Glucometer said 129, Dex said 128 with arrows pointing down.  I did a quick calculation and scarfed down 4 glucotabs.  I started shaking more.  I told my hubby what was going on. 

Why was it going down so fast?  It had only been half an hour and I was 53 points lower.  My shot was supposed to take me down to 83, so I was half way to my target after only 30 minutes.  That was too fast.  

12:19am, glucometer said I was 110.  Dex said 116.  Still dropping.  I had another glucotab.
12:25am, glucometer said I was 95.  Dex said 104.  Still dropping.  I panicked and told my hubby I was scared.  It was still dropping and I wanted to call 911 to have them here in case I passed out.  I explained the situation to the dispatcher and they sent someone over right away.  I was shaking while I waited and gulped down some raspberries.  My number went to 87 at 12:35am.

I think an ambulance and a fire truck arrived, but they sent the fire truck back and had 2 of the 5-6 paramedics who came stay.  They checked my number with their meter and it read 88.  They took my blood pressure and pulse too - both normal.  I explained that if I stabilized I wouldn't need to hop a ride to the ER.  I just needed to wait out the insulin activity time frame. 

Hubby brought in some sweetened almond milk (which had been bought accidentally instead of my usual unsweetened kind) since I didn't have the juice or peanut butter they said I should use.  (I told them I don't drink sugary stuff because I'm sensitive to it, and that I use glucotabs for lows.) 

Dex started showing my number leveling out and the dropping trend ceased.
Finally, at 12:54, my reading came back at 120.  Dex was pointing with arrows up.
I thanked them for being there and finally started calming down. 
 

Now I'm dealing with the rebound high that's been lingering all day.  I didn't sleep well last night after they left but managed to get through work without too much difficulty, then had a nice 2 hour nap upon getting home.  I may have overreacted in this situation, and I truly don't know for sure why my correction acted this way when usually it's a lot more gradual.  But I'm grateful that things didn't get worse, and that I was able to stabilize myself with out any emergency room visits.        

  

Reflecting

So before I was told I was homozygous for 1298 I was prescribed Cipro for a kidney infection by a doctor who was not very happy with me. I told her I wanted a certain antibiotic, which had been successful in treating my last kidney infection, but she wrote it for Cipro instead. 

I have 3 autoimmune diseases (Type 1 Diabetes, Hashimoto's, and Celiac) and have since learned that fluoride is not good for anyone, especially those with thyroid issues. I took the Cipro for 3 days and starting having panic attacks. I would struggle to sleep at night, waking up sweating and with thoughts of doom preventing me from falling back asleep. I would shake horribly and cry, needing my husband to hold me and ground me so I could rest easy. I thought I was having a heart attack.  I stopped taking it after 3 days and called the office that prescribed it to me, and talked to a friend who worked there who could write me a different prescription. 

I then went on to find a naturopathic doctor who could help me recover from the panic attacks. She prescribed me with L-theanine, boswellia, curcumin, fish oil, Vit D & K, and several other anti-inflammatory supplements along with a natural thyroid medication because my levels were all out of whack. 

Turns out I was floxed, the term used to describe patients who have been poisoned by fluoroquinolone antibiotics like Cipro. I now wonder if my MTHFR gene mutation made this possible, as it seems like it also caused the childhood vaccines I received to compromise my immune system. I honestly wouldn't be surprised if they are all linked. Our bodies are so intricately woven there's really nothing that isn't connected. 

https://mthfrliving.com/health.../fluoroquinolones-floxed/